The Freeze

To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it. Mother Teresa

Here in the Mid-West, Indianapolis to be exact, we are going through a deep freeze. I woke up this morning to 2 inches of ice and wind gust of up to 50 miles an hour! Crazy stuff with trees and power lines falling down.

You know what is really crazy? That's how I feel spiritually right know. Before my feet hit the floor this morning, i spent some time with the Lord and I asked Him to forgive me for my sins and give me back the deep emotion that comes from loving Him. If the feeling I have is a feeling of familiarity or complacency, I don't want it. I never for one minute want to take for granted His love, but lately it feels like i have.

So what has changed? I'm doing all the same things to be close to Him. I'm active in my Church and prayer life, as well as alms giving and ministering to those in need. But as much as I don't want to admit it, without the emotion, I am just going through the motions of loving Him.

Kinda like I do with my family sometimes, another thing I don't want to admit. And though I put myself there sometimes, they (HE) still loves me.

I can't help but think of Mother Teresa, who went through a 50 year period which she calls a dark night of the soul. St Francis also experienced this as it is said he felt unworthy of God grace. And lets not forget Job, wow! Talk about a dark night of the soul! Now don't get me wrong, I'm not even in the same ballpark as these souls, not even the parking lot of the ballpark! But it does give me some reassurence to know that dark nights happen sometimes.

What are we to learn from being away from Him?

Could God be testing me?

Is He testing my faith?

When the freeze comes will I fall like the mighty trees and power lines?

They look so strong.

Or will I bend like the willow and find shelter like the birds?

They look so fragile... I feel so fragile.

I guess I was a little to comfortable in that peace He was giving me:)

Psalms 27:13-14

I remain confident of this:

I will see the goodness of the LORD

in the land of the living.

Wait for the LORD;

be strong and take heart

and wait for the LORD.

When I climb down the mountain and get back to my life I won't settle for ordinary things Third Day

A Journey to Robin's Well

Poppy

10x10'' gallery wrapped canvas

I can't believe how time is flying by lately...in a good way since I am enjoying the ride. Days aren't dragging, they are flying and it is just amazing how God's law is freedom. I have taken time to FILL UP as I walk along my journey of Faith. I was never really good at the filling up part before, wasting time and trying to fill the hole with lots of STUFF. Stuff that could never satisfy so I would just add more STUFF. What a amazing joy it is to drink of the Living Water and be quenched! I have been filling up with Him, creating art, getting organized still ( this is a journey in itself and not one I particually enjoy!) and spending lots of quality time with family and friends. You know what I mean by quality time, just being together and letting things happen.

I wonder what fills you up?

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On one of my last posts I promised you that i would turn you on to some of my favorite bloggers. Women who inspire me, challenge me, and who lift me up in so many ways. True Blessings that I never expected to meet out here in this blogosphere.

Meet Robin !

She is a amazing Godly women who lifts people up and inspires them to be brave. She believes in herself and I just love that. Not in a cocky way, in a way that tells you that she has confidence in her Holy Maker.

Robin has a new e-book out (brave soul) called MY CREATIVE PEACE.

Here is what she says about the course...

THROUGHOUT the e-course, we will: -explore God's creativity -explore the beauty and VALUE of creativity -explore creativity as an act of worship -PINPOINT your creative journey -INTEGRATE CREATIVITY AND SPIRITUAL JOURNEY MORE DEEPLY

Robin was so nice to take the time to answer some questions for me about her journey.

· What inspired you to want to do this creative workbook? When I was fumbling my way through trying to figure out how to be more creative, I remember looking around book stores and libraries trying to find some guidance. For me Julia Cameron’s books (The Artist Way series) helped me immensely. But as I was going through I felt myself wanting to move into allowing my creative time to be a time of prayer and meditation. I had not come across any material that discussed that aspect and so I began to consider the idea of using my journaling as a means to create something for others to use.

· What are your intentions for this creative workbook? My initial intention was to create this as an e-course. I was all set to go and even began promoting it on the Internet. But a series of events occurred that got me to reconsider. One very important one was a woman sent me an email saying she found the course and though she couldn't afford to do the course, she wanted to thank me for creating something along the lines of what the course offers. This along with my desire to get back into serving in the local church caused me to temporarily move the course into this direction. My next step is to approach some local churches about offering the course within their small groups.

· How did you feel as you started to dive into the details and content of this creative workbook? FEAR AND GRATEFULNESS SIMULTANEOUSLY Fear because I was second guessing the idea that my experience of wanting to integrate creativity and Christianity is something others are desiring to do. Gratefulness for how much GOD has answered my prayer to want to take the limited time I Have and let it be a time where I experience GOD and feel incredibly fulfilled.

· How did you feel when you started to promote the creative workbook? I felt this relief about knowing I had done all I could do as far as putting my words and my art together in a manner that is aesthetically pleasing and in a way that anyone can pick up the workbook and begin. I am so excited because I have seen GOD do unexpected things! When I think I am doing something for one purpose, GOD is FABULOUS about taking it and doing more than we can ever ask or THINK!

· Can you offer any advice to someone who is contemplating doing something they have never done before?

If you really sense GOD is moving you in a new direction, you cannot FAIL! CANNOT! Take the little steps; the little things you KNOW TO DO. The steps may feel like you are bumbling around in the dark. It really did feel that way for me. And then you have this "suddenly" moment where you find yourself in the middle of this thing that is BIGGER than you and yet is THE MOST SATISFYING SPACE. And then rest in it and ENJOY IT.

What an way to fill up! GOD AND ART!

I'm in and can't wait to get my hands on this book.

Thank you Robin for being brave and encouraging others to FILL UP!

Peace

Peace

Is this my new normal?

Living in the not knowing and feeling so safe and satisfied.

Giving you each of my days, letting go of MY plan.

Not thinking about the dropping ball or the ticking of the clock.

Being free to just BE and offering all of myself to the world.

I prayed for peace, now give me the GRACE to sit a while in this place.

More on Being Real

In keeping with the spirit of my last post, I wanted to share this video from country singer BRAD PAISLEY. If you have never seen it, check it out...totally hysterical! Always makes me laugh. And it is so true! Here in blogland I often wonder what people are REALLY like? I have had the pleasure of meeting some of you and can honestly say your blog doesn't do you justice! I also know a few people who blog and they are nothing like the blogs they write. So sad because it shows in their writing. Don't get me wrong, I try and put my best foot forward too, as I do in my everyday real life. No one wants to log onto a whiny, bitchy blog everyday (and believe me I can be those things like what I'm kinda doig right now!). But I also try and keep it real. As I've posted before, I never expected to blog about my faith journey as often as i do and I thought people that posted their kid's pictures were asking for trouble. I just thought I would have a cute little art blog that would promote my work and workshops. I have grown to trust you and myself more through blogging and now post any old thing, when ever the mood hits me. This is not a numbers game for me, it is an extention of who I am. Not saying I don't try to encourage or inspire you and I'm not saying I would mind more followers. Just saying I would rather have 10 followers on a similar journey, then 4000 followers who really don't care to have a connection with me or what I care about or struggle with. I feel so blessed that this blog is growing and you actually care about reading it! In the next few week I am going to invite you to check out some of my favorite blogs. These blogs are written by genuine women who have touched my heart. Jen at FINDING HEAVEN is like that. Stop over and visit her for a glimpse into her authentic life and journey of Faith. Enjoy the show...

TRU 2011

"Be true to yourself.

Knowing who you are

- that's the foundation for everything great."

Jay Z

GONE 20x16" encaustic

Jay Z is just so cool, I don't even like rap, but he is smooth and I would probably like his music.

That quote really hit me when I heard it. Being TRUE is a process as it takes time to know who we were truly made to be. God has had His hands full with me and I have fought Him most of my life. Being rather proud to call myself a fighter in the past, I now view it as my biggest defeat. I could have surrendered to Him sooner but I know He knew what He was getting into. And anyway this post is not about regret or mistakes, it is about hope. Hope that a new year will bring me closer to the greatness of who God has made me to be. Do I know myself yet? YES!!! I can say at 39 years young, I finally know myself. And what I know about myself is God made me to be uniquely me and He's not finished with me yet. Stubborn and crazy, deep and aloof, creative and quirky, caring and empathic, just me. And if that's good enough for Him then who I am to argue with the Lord of all?

In 2011, I pray that we will all continue to surrender to Him, day by day, moment by moment. I don't know about you but this surrendering thing is a process for me and sometimes I need to take it a minute at a time. But my Father knew that when He made me and today to sit in that love is the foundation of my life.

in 2007 when I started my art business I called it TRU original. T.R.U. means The Real U.

That's our destiny, that's our purpose.

xo

Be safe tonight and enjoy YOURSELF!

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas

to you and yours!

May your day be filled with the love and peace of Christ our Savior.

Thank you for all the support this year,

as I journeyed out of my comfort zone,

into the world of blogging.

You have made my experience WONDER-FILLED

and I have enjoyed getting to know you.

I look forward to 2011 as we continue to

laugh

and

cry

together

on this journey of

FAITH.

I'm so WEAK!

I'm so weak, I have no control of myself when I make my favorite Christmas treat. I honestly had to have my husband take the last batch of this I made and lock it in a padlocked tote. So weak!! And when I'm feeling entitled to a treat and hit that moment of weakness, I demand that he gives me the key. He lovingly tries to discourage me , just like I instructed, but I just get mad and go from demanding to threatening and he loses the will to fight.

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WARNING>>>>>this recipe is dangerous for your health and will power!

Make at you own risk...

Addictive Caramel Corn Puffs

• 2 sticks butter
• 2 c. brown sugar
• 1/2 c. Karo (light)
• 1/2 tsp. vanilla
• 1 tsp Kosher salt
• 1/2 tsp. baking soda
• 1 package butter flavored corn puffs

In a large saucepan, bring butter, brown sugar and Karo to a boil for 5 minutes stirring constantly. Stir in vanilla, salt and baking soda. (This will cause the mixture to bubble up.) Pour the corn puffs into a large bowl. Pour the mixture over the corn puffs and stir until well coated. Bake at 250 degrees for 1 hour. Turn and stir every 15 minutes. Allow to cool on a wire cooling rack. To store, place in a sealed air tight container.

*I always double this recipe and have to make several batches to share because I'm the Corn Puff pusher and all my friends and family have developed a Caramel Corn Puff habit too!

Enjoy!

Ornament Exchange with Studio JRU

TGIF!! Are you feelin' me?

Looking back on my week, I am almost amazed at what I accomplished (even posted 3 times!). SOOOO, why was it such a long week? It should have flown by! Not complaining, just saying:)

Many of you know our dear and creative friend Jennifer from STUDIO JRU.

She is crazy talented and crazy organized and I well, feel into her trap! But I'm so glad I did because it was pure JOY to make and recieve 10 handmade Christmas ornaments.

Here is what I came up with.

Nothing too complex, just a mini canvas mixed media ornament with a black spiril wire hanger. I used acrylic paint, paper, stamps and of course gel medium.

Fun to make and I hope it was fun to recieve.

AND...drum roll please>>>>>>>Here is what I received!

I know, I know!! So good right?

What fun it was to go out to my mailbox each day and anticipate what would be waiting for me there. Even the kids were excited!

I would totally do this again, as it just reminded me of what a wonderful community we have built together. I had a piece of you, right there in my hands! Every time I log on, I feel like that way. I never knew when I started writing this blog that I would have the pleasure of being welcomed into your homes and hearts. I never knew I would grow to care about you and your struggles and triumphs. But God knew... and I'm so glad he led me to you!

I hope this Christmas Season is leading you to a deeper love of HIM!!

Stop over and visit Jennifer, STUDIO JRU, to see who made what.

THANK YOU for sharing your talent with me!

Is this what Heaven Sounds Like??

My hubby sent this to me this morning and what a blessing it was. As I was listening to it I couldn't help but think 'Is this what Heaven sounds like?' Then the tears started and I sat in JOY and WONDER. This day at the mall must have put a smile on our Holy Father's face. :) May God bless you today!

Big dreams + hope and faith = a wonder-filled life!

The definition of WONDER:

a : a cause of astonishment or admiration : marvel

b : miracle 2: the quality of exciting amazed admiration 3 a : rapt attention or astonishment at something awesomely mysterious or new to one's experience

b : a feeling of doubt or uncertainty

Wonder. What a rich word! Marvel, miracle, astonishment. When was the last time you felt those things? Maybe as a young child the first time you saw a giraffe, or a skyscraper or a rainbow? But as an adult? When do you recall feeling wonderment?

Even the doubt and uncertainty part in this word is rich. Isn't it good to feel doubt and uncertainty sometimes? We don't know the future and life can change in a New York minute. To just allow myself to feel uncertain would be freeing after all we are all uncertain, life is uncertain!

But I have big dreams...so big that I have to push them down. After all who I'm I to dream such dreams? AND life is uncertain. It's hard to plan when you don't know what may be around the next corner. But lately, as God transforms me, refining me with great care and gentleness, He tells me that His dreams for me are BIG! Bigger then I can see or even imagine. And I just wonder...like a child...what He has in store for little ole' me.

Prepare your hearts and repent!! With forgiveness, HE is coming to make your deepest dreams a reality. Dreams that are so BIG that only God himself could fathom them. Not one of us is worthy, but Gods grace and mercy is ENOUGH!

Luke 5

Jesus Heals a Paralyzed Man

17 One day while Jesus was teaching, some Pharisees and teachers of religious law were sitting nearby. (It seemed that these men showed up from every village in all Galilee and Judea, as well as from Jerusalem.) And the Lord’s healing power was strongly with Jesus. 18 Some men came carrying a paralyzed man on a sleeping mat. They tried to take him inside to Jesus,

19 but they couldn't reach him because of the crowd. So they went up to the roof and took off some tiles. Then they lowered the sick man on his mat down into the crowd, right in front of Jesus.

20 Seeing their faith, Jesus said to the man, “Young man, your sins are forgiven.” 21 But the Pharisees and teachers of religious law said to themselves, “Who does he think he is? That’s blasphemy! Only God can forgive sins!” 22 Jesus knew what they were thinking, so he asked them, “Why do you question this in your hearts?

23 Is it easier to say ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or ‘Stand up and walk’?

24 So I will prove to you that the Son of Man[d] has the authority on earth to forgive sins.” Then Jesus turned to the paralyzed man and said, “Stand up, pick up your mat, and go home!” 25 And immediately, as everyone watched, the man jumped up, picked up his mat, and went home praising God.

26 Everyone was gripped with great wonder and awe, and they praised God, exclaiming, “We have seen amazing things today!”

I hope you see amazing things today!