Saturday, May 11, 2013

Finding my way through the Dark


Dear Heart,
Finding my way through the dark these days...or should I say the incredibly bright, can't even bare to look, light. Yes...let's call it that... TBL...the blinding light!
TBL is amazing, warm, soothing and nourishes my thirsty soul. The problem is, I've become so unfamiliar with TBL that is feels like dark...and I'm scrambling around. What do I do with all this love? Now don't get me pity party here, I'm loving it. But as a wife and mom, as the servant God has called me to be ( us all to be) ...How am I the one being served? I even tried to read a magazine on the back porch last week and noticed how uncomfortable it felt. Not to be doing something, just sitting there. This is not ok, this discomfort. This is not who God made me, any mothers and wife's, to be.

God has been speaking a lot to my heart about many passages about rest and restoration of the soul but here is one that really moves me...
"In repentance and rest you will be saved,
In quietness and trust is your strength.”
and then it goes on to say...
"But you were not willing."
Isaiah 30:15's the "but you were not willing" part that stings. Oh Lord, I'm willing...might have to remind me how!! Of course it's hard to rest right now with family in the background playing Aerosmith on 10! Feel like yelling out BE QUITE! Now the vacuum! Bad to complain about vacuuming, huh? Still feel like yelling!
This Mother's Day...I hope you rest! I hope that every mom will find themselves resting in the arms of Jesus. Can you picture that? Sitting on the lap of our Jesus...resting. AWWWWWWWWW. Now that feels good! Bask in TBL!
Please stop over on Mother's Day and visit Mixed Media May, where 30 international mixed media artist are offering interviews. My interview is scheduled for tomorrow...Mother's Day! So very cool and it's an honor to be part of this collaboration of talented artist.  
Hey beautiful you...Happy Mother's Day!!!

Monday, January 21, 2013

MIA...that's me!

Dear Heart...
What a long strange trip it's been:) And what a year 2012 turned out to be. like the above painting i did and the one in the post below, i have felt so open and free to being FILLED up and completely surrendering to God's will in my life. Along the way He reassued me as I closed many doors and gave up on a dream or two.  God provided many opportunities to grow and yes He did stretch me a bit... well a lot. At times it hurt a little..well a lot, but looking back it was an awesome year and I continue to be in awe of God's generousity.
i have many goals for 2013 and hope to connect here in this place more often. to continue to share my heart and creative spirit remains a hearts desire but i also hope to build bridges with people who share that calling.
To stay rooted in my goals and wishes for the new year my reminder word is GROUNDED. I want to continue to surrender and be grounded in God's word and will for me. I spent so many years of my life soaring, exploring, and discovering myself. I get the picture of who i am and what i have to offer. i want to stay grounded and content in who that is and remain open to what God would like to do with me.
i am inspired by each of you and feel so much support! it is humbling as i see many of you struggle and grow with such grace and freedom. If you have a word that inspires and nurtures your 2013 journey...what is it? I would like to stop by and support you in that mission.
If you don't have a mission for the new year...maybe it's because God has you in a similair place that i found myself in and growing, completely surrendered and totally wiped out. If brave cause it is the beginning of a transformation. Be easy on yourself because it's a first step on a long road. I would like to be there to encourage you. Remember, we don't always have to soar...sometimes we need to land.
thanks for being a soft place for me to land:)